What happened during the past week? Well, I had to take up the reins of leadership just to get my group under control. Let's just say, I just couldn't bear to see a group of people sitting in a circle (well, not exactly, but you get my point), trying to figure out who's doing what and end up wasting the whole free hour dawdling.
Maybe I'm just weird, but I usually draw courage and determination from others' fears and fickleness.
But back to the main point: I'd asked if anyone wants to be the leader, they'd go "NUUUUUUU~!" or "DOWAN!!" or "I DUNNO HOW LAAAR~!!".
Sometimes I wonder what's up with students these days. Do they object the role of a leader because they don't want to burden themselves with heavy responsibilities? Or are they afraid of leading? Afraid their peers would jeer at them when they make a mistake as a leader? Afraid to face the teachers? Or is that just what most people call... "teenagers' lackadaisical attitude"? =/
So, the whole week resulted with me being the leader for both Management and Marketing group. (I almost became one for ADA, but I rejected that role. There's just too many to do! >.>')
And being a leader means I have to bug my mates for the sake of handing up their essay parts, pulling my hair in frustration while compiling/editing their work and take my studies seriously so that I can guide some of my clueless groupies. However, I admit shamefully that I'd failed to uphold the last part; I slack for the latest Management readings. As a result, I wasn't prepared for the quiz, and I didn't know what's going on until the day of presentation, when the first two groups presented their materials. x_x'
The stress is building on me.
Japan trip is drawing near. (April 4th)
Have yet to plot on Management assignment. (2 reference books are with me, though)
Started Group Marketing discussion, expect many more to come. (even consulted Ms.Alice about it)
Have to pass up first draft of MCB work through TurnItIn on Saturday. (1000 words!? That's despicable!)
Marketing assignment deadline and marketing quiz tomorrow. (Have not started revising, even)
... I'm really racing against time here. v.v'
List to Write:
1) Killer of Oz*
2) Of Android and Applecots
3) Ashes to Ashes (chapter 4)
4) April Monthly Theme Challenge***
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Lessons Learned
A day with a friend, a week of new experiences, an upcoming month of challenges... Valuable lessons learned.
1. Never judge a book by its cover
Because appearance can be deceiving, and not everyone is as happy as s/he seems to be. I've been proven wrong twice; once last week, once today. And it made me realize that I should start giving people a chance, and I should try to increase my feelings of empathy. I was an idiot for missing subtle hints today, but thank goodness it wasn't too late.
2. Always solve a problem QUICKLY
I learned that during my Pre-U years, and I realized this lesson today. If something is bothering you, or if you're ever stuck in an assignment, always get help. Solve it before it piles up and become too late.
3. You haven't hit the rock bottom
Maybe you got into a sticky situation, or the stress and frustration are just building, or you feel as if the world's against you... Sit back, and think hard. Remember, there are people who's probably caught in a situation worse than you. No, I'm not asking you to think 'African kids are poor' far (though if it helps, then continue to do so!), but think of worst-case scenario... and be thankful that you're not in that horrible scenario. Then, work on relieving that stress or solving your case.
Of course, if you reached rock bottom, there's no way to go but up and up! So, never give up! Never surrender! =3
4. People change
And surprisingly, not many people noticed that. Imagine, you have an old friend who was cheerful before. Few years later, you see her/him with the same optimistic expression on her/his face. You would probably think "Ahh, everything's the same as before! (My friend) never changed!"
But the truth is: Everyone does change, including you and I. The present 'me' is definitely different that the 'me' from the past. And for all you know, your friend might be actually hiding his/her pain with that Smile of Deception.
5. Never blog when you're tired
Coz I remember I have lots to write, but I'm feeling sleepy now, and... and...
Zzzz....
1. Never judge a book by its cover
Because appearance can be deceiving, and not everyone is as happy as s/he seems to be. I've been proven wrong twice; once last week, once today. And it made me realize that I should start giving people a chance, and I should try to increase my feelings of empathy. I was an idiot for missing subtle hints today, but thank goodness it wasn't too late.
2. Always solve a problem QUICKLY
I learned that during my Pre-U years, and I realized this lesson today. If something is bothering you, or if you're ever stuck in an assignment, always get help. Solve it before it piles up and become too late.
3. You haven't hit the rock bottom
Maybe you got into a sticky situation, or the stress and frustration are just building, or you feel as if the world's against you... Sit back, and think hard. Remember, there are people who's probably caught in a situation worse than you. No, I'm not asking you to think 'African kids are poor' far (though if it helps, then continue to do so!), but think of worst-case scenario... and be thankful that you're not in that horrible scenario. Then, work on relieving that stress or solving your case.
Of course, if you reached rock bottom, there's no way to go but up and up! So, never give up! Never surrender! =3
4. People change
And surprisingly, not many people noticed that. Imagine, you have an old friend who was cheerful before. Few years later, you see her/him with the same optimistic expression on her/his face. You would probably think "Ahh, everything's the same as before! (My friend) never changed!"
But the truth is: Everyone does change, including you and I. The present 'me' is definitely different that the 'me' from the past. And for all you know, your friend might be actually hiding his/her pain with that Smile of Deception.
5. Never blog when you're tired
Coz I remember I have lots to write, but I'm feeling sleepy now, and... and...
Zzzz....
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Friday, February 29, 2008
Flip, flip
New textbooks lie on my table in a pile, mocking me with their size. The heavy air of responsibility hung in the air; the sight of the glinting platinum card used to purchase this books lingers in my mind.
I skimmed through the thinnest one, Communication Skills for International Students in Business. The pages are smooth, and from the contents, I can guess that lots of writing (formal letters, etc.) is expected from this subject. Briefly, I wondered how the textbooks would look like for Mass Communication or Creative Writing. Do those courses actually have textbooks?
As I pondered, I'd started with the next textbook, Management. It was only slightly thicker than the previous book. Colourful pages were riddled with words and pictures. Doubt and fear arose and constricted my chest. In order to master the subjects, one must be diligent and consistent with their work. One might have to make sacrifices in entertainment, favourite hobbies, time... I may be inspired in the beginning, but can I maintain that pumped attitude?
Marketing later found its way onto my lap. The neatly arranged words and the colourful pictures and diagrams was a contrast to its black, depressing hardcover. New concepts and topics filled my vision. Doubts and questions grew. What am I doing here? Why am I doing this? Can I really complete this? Everything looks so hard! Calm down, calm down, maybe I'm just tired from today's orientation?
Dread had filled my chest when I reached for the last textbook, Accounting. It was as thick as the last book of the Harry Potter series. Maybe even a little thicker than that. I flipped opened the pages, expecting more unfamiliar texts and scheming pictures... only to be greeted by welcoming windows, decorated with little words and numbers. Hope blossomed in my heart, ever so suddenly.
Maybe... Just maybe... I can survive this course after all.
Maybe... Just maybe... I'd remember why I'd pick this stupid course.
I skimmed through the thinnest one, Communication Skills for International Students in Business. The pages are smooth, and from the contents, I can guess that lots of writing (formal letters, etc.) is expected from this subject. Briefly, I wondered how the textbooks would look like for Mass Communication or Creative Writing. Do those courses actually have textbooks?
As I pondered, I'd started with the next textbook, Management. It was only slightly thicker than the previous book. Colourful pages were riddled with words and pictures. Doubt and fear arose and constricted my chest. In order to master the subjects, one must be diligent and consistent with their work. One might have to make sacrifices in entertainment, favourite hobbies, time... I may be inspired in the beginning, but can I maintain that pumped attitude?
Marketing later found its way onto my lap. The neatly arranged words and the colourful pictures and diagrams was a contrast to its black, depressing hardcover. New concepts and topics filled my vision. Doubts and questions grew. What am I doing here? Why am I doing this? Can I really complete this? Everything looks so hard! Calm down, calm down, maybe I'm just tired from today's orientation?
Dread had filled my chest when I reached for the last textbook, Accounting. It was as thick as the last book of the Harry Potter series. Maybe even a little thicker than that. I flipped opened the pages, expecting more unfamiliar texts and scheming pictures... only to be greeted by welcoming windows, decorated with little words and numbers. Hope blossomed in my heart, ever so suddenly.
Maybe... Just maybe... I can survive this course after all.
Maybe... Just maybe... I'd remember why I'd pick this stupid course.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Old and New
A new year,
A new course,
A new chapter of my life
... And a new blog, of course.
Old doubts still linger,
Old fears waiting to be conquered,
Old stories waiting to be finished (*cough*),
Old ideas waiting to be used.
... Gee, first post is usually when people introduce themselves or the purpose of this blog or whatsoever, but I find it pointless; as blog entries build up, nobody would bother to read the first entry.
Why 'Missing Pages' as the blog title?
Well, my life is like a story book. But one can never truly understand the life, the experiences, the joys and pain of another unless one is there to witness it. This blog is the highlighted missing pages of my life which I shall share with you readers. Highlighted, because reading every single page of one's life is long, difficult and boring.
So, huzzah~
A new course,
A new chapter of my life
... And a new blog, of course.
Old doubts still linger,
Old fears waiting to be conquered,
Old stories waiting to be finished (*cough*),
Old ideas waiting to be used.
... Gee, first post is usually when people introduce themselves or the purpose of this blog or whatsoever, but I find it pointless; as blog entries build up, nobody would bother to read the first entry.
Why 'Missing Pages' as the blog title?
Well, my life is like a story book. But one can never truly understand the life, the experiences, the joys and pain of another unless one is there to witness it. This blog is the highlighted missing pages of my life which I shall share with you readers. Highlighted, because reading every single page of one's life is long, difficult and boring.
So, huzzah~
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