Fatigue

... I'm tired.

Sloth and fatigue lodged onto my bones. I feel like crawling into my bed, wrap myself with my warm comforter like how one would wrap a sushi with seaweed and SLEEP... Until my energy's recharged and my mind's clear. Oh, Great Buddha, I need all the energy to tackle my assignment research these days.

Gee, sometimes I wish I can talk as well as I write. >.>'

The urge to write is here, but the chains of stress binded my hands, preventing me from writing my stories.

List of assignments:

1. Marketing [+/- 400 words]
2. Accounting [calculations]
3. Managing Communication in Business [+/- 2000 words]
4. Management [2000-3000 words(!?)]

Right, go go.

WTF!?

I've started printing block lecture handouts from 8.30am, and I've finished at 10.15am.

Too many people are using the printer, resulting a massive jam. My quota was severely reduced by half because of the constant 'click-print!'... until I click the mini printer on the window task bar and found out that the printer has so many task that mine's lined at the bottom. And soooo, I waited by the computer desk, surfing to my heart's content while waiting for my turn instead of crowding around the printer like most students.

Gave all the Japan sounvenirs to most lecturers and tutors, save Ms. Neliza. Couldn't find her for some reason, and I'd forgotten to bring it on Wednesday. Japan photos are still under the err, uploading process (they're too darn big '=/).

Gosh, there are so many things to write. Starting from my Japan trip, my crappy Marketing presentation on last Wednesday (which I don't feel like writing about it >.>'), the trip to Astro to see my mum judging the singers in the semi-finals (I regret not bringing my camera...), 'The Children of Huang Shi' movie (the story ain't bad; it can be quite touching, but the way they 'beautify' the White and make us Chinese seems heartless is a bit... meh) to today's Management block lecture... Goodness, until 7pm.

I'd probably emerge later as a half-zombie. >.>'

Crap, I feel like writing a story. Again.

An Amusing yet Okay Start

Monday.

Trudging back uni/college after spending a week in Japan paradise... How I wish I can feel that 14-16 degrees natural cool air again. But anyway, I didn't come empty-hand, of course; I brought some tidbits (seaweed-covered rice-crackers) to share with my class 1.5 and gifts to bribe for my lecturer and tutor.

Now, the secret about the rice-crackers is: there's wasabi in it. But I, um, inadvertently left out the information. As a result, Balqis almost choked it. Mighty "I love cili padi! This can't beat me!" Zahra took it well... then requested for water later. ShimYi ate it calmly, and later admit that it's quite hot and down it with water. Jun, according to Angeline, exclaimed that there are 'damn many wasabi' in the rice-crackers with his cheeks flushed.

... I think, anyone eat the wasabi-filled rice-cracker without knowing it's filled with wasabi is probably cursing me now. 'XD


Management presentation is horrible because I wasn't prepared or formally dressed (despite Keh Huat's hints), and my group mates seemed to have fell apart: Two didn't do their work and is clueless about the presentation, one's internet went kaput, resulting only TWO people doing the entire slide, or so I've heard. And since I wasn't ready at all... >.>'

All the words I'd said are actually thought up on-the-spot, with help from the slides. I was trying hard to come up with something new because I know I'm not supposed to read the slides during presentation~! x__x'

Alas, it's all over now. Let's hope for the better in the future. v.v'


I gave a souvenir to Ms. Choo (Management tutor), and had a heart-felt talk with her. She was impressed with my brother getting a scholarship to Japan and encouraged me to 'work for it'. Mm, maybe I will. =3

Gave another to Ms. Woo (Accounting lecturer), and put on my best 'innocent yet clueless face' while asking her for guidance. She gave me great tips! X3 ... though I'd probably have to study most of last week's lesson via textbook by myself in order to comprehend what was taught. Shouldn't be a problem, I hope?


Had lunch with Lynn in PEPPERCORN... and bumped onto 2/3 of 1.5 classmates. I'd half-expected them to go "ZOMG YOU GAVE US WASABI! YA WITCH!", but ahh, nothing much happened. 'XD Showed Lynn my NDS, jap doujins and novels I'd bought. w00t!


Returned home... and there was a powercut at 6pm, which lasted for almost an hour. My dad couldn't enter my house coz the gate ain't working, and the key couldn't seem to open the gate.


I guess Monday's is... okay. A mixture of good and bad. 'X3

Demotivated.

The flames of motivation is gone.

For the past weeks, I've been energetic and enthusiastic about UniSA. I like skimming through those awesomely thick books and prepare for next lectures. I love looking at the colourful notes I'd made. I don't mind assignments, much.

But now, I just.. lost that drive. I feel like slacking, not doing anything. I find it harder to concentrate in class. I'm just so loss (but at least I know what's going on in the lesson) and BORED. I felt as if the world had gotten all dark and gloomy, without a single spark of hope left... (or maybe it was raining just now) =/

The approaching Japan trip is making things worse. Don't get me wrong, I'm looking forward to the trip... but I can't help feeling stressed and hopeless at times. There are just so many... so many things to do... And the fact that I have to send my brother off to Japan tonight, plus 'stuff' to do on Wednesday makes me wonder if I can actually finish the assignments in time. And the thought of it sent a chill towards my spine.

Stress and demotivation is definitely not a good combination. I think I better search for my drive. >.>'